I have been thinking about the comment from Chelly a while ago. She told me to do what I want to do and not what my parents what me to do. After thinking about it for a while, I realised I’m only living my own life after I enter polytechnic and knew him. I used to be the good girl of my parents, although I’m not a bad girl now but I have my own thoughts and I started to do what I liked to do but not what my parents had wanted me to do. He brought about laughter to my life and through his life, I learned to live my life and not my parent’s life. I’ve been giving myself loads of stress mainly due to the fact that my parents had wanted me to enter university after I graduated from Ngee An. Honestly, I’m not someone that can manage a high level of pressure well. I remembered the days when I was having my Primary School Leaving Examinations about 6 years old and I almost lost control over myself because I can’t handle the amount of pressure.
And now, I can’t believe that I’ve been together with him for nearly a year and without my parent’s consent. I love shopping, I love eating, I love movies. I love web and graphics designing. Basically, I love everything in life that I didn’t before. No shopping! No movies! No hanging out with my friends and the list goes on. My past was like a straight line. Everyday, I will wake up in the morning, go for school, come home, do my homework and tutorials and off to bed. This cycle continues for so many years that I’m so used to it already. But this straight line turns for the better last year 
. I’m enjoying and loving my life except for the fact that I’m lying to my parents because of him. I meet up with friends for movies, shopping, eating and what not. I still love school and I love to study. 
I guess that’s an old habit.
I’m living my own life and honestly, I don’t mind not going to a university. What’s with a university degree when I’m not happy? I just want to graduate happily and get my diploma and if possible enter a university. But I’m not making it a “must-do” for myself now. Then, find a stable job and then the usual, have a family, grows old… I don’t need a high paying job. I need a “happy-paying” job, something I enjoy doing. And that will be my life!
And so I went to watch Ice Age II today and it’s a hilarious movie, lame and funny. I find it really enjoyable and entertaining. I love cartoons. I really wonder how many “I love …” do I have in this post? 
There’s another cartoon coming on next, something called “Over the hedges” if I didn’t remembered wrongly and I have to watch that. It sounds interesting as well. I guess my movie addiction would wear off once school starts.
6 April, 2006 at 5:18 pm
I’m glad you are happy with your life now
It’s sad that you still have to lie to your parents about him, but well if that’s the way… Your blog made me really happy, I’m not sure why but there’s come such a positive energy from it 
6 April, 2006 at 3:10 pm
I’m happy for you! While following your parents is a good thing, if it starts getting in the way of your happiness, then it’s time to bend the rules!
Your story’s similar to mine. I used to be a robot daughter myself: study all day, no time to go out places, and do whatever my parents wanted. But when I transferred schools, I hit off with so many new friends, met my boyfriend, and had tons of fun. I had the time of my life!
Being happy and content is way more fulfilling than wealth and money. That’s definitely for sure!
6 April, 2006 at 10:57 am
hey
i don’t think i feel that much pressure to go to uni, i want to though, i think i’m more interested in a well-paying job than one i enjoy lol. basically because I have fun playing sport and being with my friends so i can’t do a job with those so my next priority is money lol. :heart:
i think it’s great that you are doing what you want to do, you sound like you’ll be really happy no matter what you choose!
i wish i was like that, i’m scared i’m going to make the wrong decision. *sigh*
xx
6 April, 2006 at 9:55 am
I’m glad you came to that realization now.
I myself have never had that as I have always been doing that but I guess I can relate to your comment about how your past seemed to be so straight lined. I am the same way, I used to be anti-social and never went out… and it wasn’t because I was scared… I just didn’t go.
But then I decided to let people see who I was for once and it worked out nicely for me in the end. Now I wouldn’t trade my life for anything… You got to love life’s lessons.
6 April, 2006 at 7:23 am
I’m glad you gave it some thought and decide to live your own life. My mom only cares about me getting lots of money so I can take care of her when she gets old. She doesn’t want me to send her to an elderly care home (which is ironic considering that she used to own one herself). She also criticizes and doubts me for the career path I’m taking and says that since I’m attending a university across the country, she won’t support me if I ever need money. But I don’t care because I’m following my dreams. A friend of mine agreed that our generation is just different: It’s all about happiness now, not wealth. Our riches are the smiles and memories, not the amount of cash and useless luxuries.
6 April, 2006 at 2:33 am
It’s common for teenagers like us to not inform our parents when we get hitched. Most parents will usually object, because they are stuck with the old mentality that as students, we should be focusing on our studies and not oogling the opposite gender. :P
My mother is constantly badgering me to get a boyfriend, though. Because she wants some peace and quiet in the house.
On a different note, I agree with what Chelly has told you. Indeed, you ought to live your life for yourself. I have the same mentality as well, and I usually don’t let people tell me what I should do. Hence, I am referred to as ‘stubborn’ ever so often. But then again, we should protect our own interests.